stuff

well, wedding planning is going alright, although im not able to choose or decide much of anything. even though im the bride.
anyways. some stuff has happend, i had a birthday, went to visit my parents, my mo mand grandma came to visit, my fiance damaged my car, still in debt, got assigned a new task for my job, and a few other things.
im still very very very depressed about my boring ass life. i think once we are out of debt our lives will be different, my though of enjoyment wont be going to walmart for food. it will be going to beach for the weekend. hahaha ill be 30 by then. oh well, so long as i get there, and i know i will get there.

blah blah blah

well its the first monday in may, and it feels like every other monday, horrid and depressing. but as soon as i win a million dollars im out of here, i can live off of a million dollars, id never have to work again. its great. anyways, i finaly have something to look forward to, so time will passs up. in june im taking a vacation to see my parents in missouri with my friend, then goin gto silver dolar city. gots to go

boring

yet another monday at this hell hole. i really really hate working, i now see that i liked my old job at the retail shop better then this, kinda,,, sorta,,, not really. its back to our normal routine. get up, o to work, get home, go to bed.. fun fun. maybe after me and my finace get out of debt i will be able to work part time and work on going to school. cause i can NOT handle full time and school. i will barely make it working part time, if i can even go. maybe next summer. neverminde i forgot i had a car to pay for. i should of never gotten it, thats whats holding me back from going to school if i didnt have it, i could work part time. oh well. i can have a few breakdowns through school. actually no, i wont go to school, unless i work part time. thats final, i wont stress myself out. even if i have to get an ghetto apartment so all i have to pay for is car payment. and food. i wish sooo bad, i could go back to when i didnt work, i just went to school, that was so much fun. i miss my friends, i miss going out on the weekends, i wish i loved with my parents still, oh well. ima going to be stuck working full time, stressing myself out on all this work, never go to college, end up being a boring old hag who never did anythng in her lfie but work. im so frikken depressd i could sue somebody!

hump day

today is alil better then yesterday. tonight i have to go to a pre marital counceling. they are alright. alil long and boring, but somewhat useful. i get off work in about 15 min. im excited about that, today was long enough, im glad thursday is my last day for this week. like always nothing new happend today so i guess i got nothing to say. like anybody would listen anyways

hump day

terrible tuesday

today is not my day. work is to stressful that i just decided to say "screw it", im not even going to bother working i cant handle it by myself. at least im off on friday. me, my fiance' and his parents are going to buffalo wild wings tonight. i hate that place, i got sick of it. i got so much stuff running through my head today. just things about the wedding, my dog, my finace, my job, my boring ass life that i dare to even call a "life". ill get over it though. always do, just gotta push through the hard days and lie to myself saying that my life is great, and lie to myself saying i have a fun life. i havent been out in awhile. dont got the money to. im just tired, not in a physical sence, but just mentaly and spiritualy.
this window in my office on the 3rd floor look smighty nice right about now. naw id never do that. but the thought makes me happy. just not having to go to work, not having to do anything. yes you can say im lazy, but thats just me. i miss my dad i havnt seen him since christmas, my parents live in missouri so i dont get to see them often. my mom is down here, but i miss my dad alot, i feel bad for not seeing im, they had just put our family dog that we had since i was 4, to sleep, and my dad took it hard, i took it hard to, she was a good mutt. mutts are the better dogs tho. my border collie is a angel tho. we also have a corgi but she has the intellagence of a crushed wingless bee. anyways, ive wasted to much time .

catch up

ok, im going to get yall caught up since i havnt had any time to write a new post.
well lets see, i will start from april 15th. april 15th was my fiance's birthday. he turned 23. his parents came down that night and we all went out to eat at a japanese steakhouse. then came home and had some cake and opened daniels presents. i got him 2 wireless PS2 controllers, 1 wireless xbox controller and a $50 gift card to radio shack. his parents got him like 100 blank cds, paint for his motorcycle, ipod holder thingy, and new memory for his laptop, we spoil him alot! the next day my mother came to visit me from missouri. and we all went out and got some things done for the weddding, got tuxs, cake, engagment pictures, wedding bands, (yesterday but i forgot. tomorrow we are going to the church and showing our parents she church, it is beautiful. well everything is going ok so far. i will write more tommorow.

April 7th

yet another day at this place that i hate, this place that is unlike anything else, this hell hole, WORK.
busy as ever. but im taking a little break to write this. cause i can damnit! if eveyrbody else can take a break so can I. tonight i have nothing planned to do as usual. i have to save my money for food at walmart. off brand food. and gas for my car. and a tire. my tire this morning was flat, that just tops off every day dont it? well a screw was in it, probably blew in the street from the many many tornadic weather outside yesterday. thank god me and my finace's house didnt get hit. that would escalate he mood im in.
and the people who bring me the mail to be scanned in on my snazzy high speed scanner, dont bother takign the staples out, so therfor i have 12 bandaids on 1 hand.
anyways, back to work.
long............ long........ long day at work